Goodbye Onyx Pitch

Where I’m going 
      you CANNOT follow
   for my truest form to really grow
       I need to be let go
   the hamster wheel no longer 
         suits me, my muscles 
    are weary and my mind 
      increased stability 

  Nothing will ever be good enough
    I’ve resided in good enough 
      it only ever got me to quarter 
        past NEVER and ALWAYS
           half past desolation 
      and seriously such a disservice 
  to everything in my present 

So, please let me go.

  The ugly blood infused 
   tear drops have fallen enough,     
        don’t you think? 

  Please, I’m begging you,
    let me go. It’s the only way 
  purpose is MASSIVE, organic 
    thoughts that conceptualize
       a life fraught with such toxic 
             indecision    

  I need to be set free from you 
     I need you to release me
         held captive to days 
   that are no longer consequential 
      a myriad thought corpses 
       
      CRASH 

Heavily weighed all those 
   bile and ugly snapshots 
 should never matter again 
    as humans we carry 
the capacity to begin 
   and end very differently 

     Release me 

 My desire to join you 
     in a true dance macabre 
  no longer exists 

  You take my kindness and 
   suggest weakness 
      
Have you ever used certain 
    thoughts to SEVERELY
  increase your oxytocin levels 
    to the point of dizzy ness 

    It’s wonderful when there are a catalogue of memories to pull from  
    and you are no longer 
         welcome